Title: Not That Easy
Pairing/Characters: Tommy/Jase (OMC), Adam/Sauli, Adam/Tommy Friendship
Rating (Word Count): R (7x100)
Warning(s): None
Author's notes: This is set in the It's That Pivotal Moment verse> and it's set AFTER the sequel which is in the editing process right now. All you need to know is Adam and Sauli are together and Tommy is dating an Army Doctor. Thanks to leela_cat for the beta <333



Not That Easy

"Such a beautiful release, you inside of me."

The words echoed through Tommy's headphones. He was trying to learn the guitar parts, but this song was so hard. Not because the music was difficult, but because the lyrics were just so raw, so emotional, and so vulnerable. And Adam's voice was ethereal in its beauty, the song haunting.

That particular line made Tommy think of what Jase looked like when they were having sex; his face awash with pleasure as he thrust feverishly into Tommy's body, both of them at their most vulnerable and open just like in the song.

^v^

Tommy's hands shook a bit as he strummed the guitar. The image of Jase inside of him was breathtaking. It made his heart clench in his chest, sent blood rushing south. Jase was the only person he'd let see 'underneath' everything. The thought of losing him, terrified Tommy. Hearing Adam sing about vulnerability and fear brought back the crushing panic he'd felt while Jase was on deployment, the worry that had weighed him down when Jase was outside the fence. There'd been no communication, and he'd come to realize that he didn't want to live without Jase in his life.

^v^

Tommy had no poker face and he knew it. When they performed, all those emotions would be right there for everyone to see and capture with a zoom lens. And then those images would be posted online.

His love for Jase, his fear of losing him, his desire for him, everything he felt for Jason would be everywhere he looked and everyone would know. It wasn't shame over his feelings. It was that it was too much, too personal, and he didn't want to let all those people inside, let alone underneath.

That was Jase's place, and Jase's place alone.

^v^

"I can't do this," he whispered.

"Yes, you can," Adam said softly, pulling the headphones off. "If I can sing it, you can play it."

Tommy met Adam's eyes, showed him the fear he felt at opening himself up like that. Adam wrapped a hand around the back of his neck, pressing their foreheads together. "We can be vulnerable together. And when we're done? We have Sauli and Jase to make it better."

"Promise?"

Adam grinned. "I do."

Tommy played, Adam sang, all their vulnerabilities exposed. True to Adam's word, when they finished, Tommy found himself wrapped in Jase's arms.

^v^

"Adam was right, you know," Jase whispered into Tommy's ear. "I knew you could do it."

Tommy tightened his arms around Jase. "Because of you."

Jase pulled back, grabbing Tommy's face with his hands. "No, because of you and that beautiful man over there, both of you letting everyone in like that, seeing the two of you at your most raw. They connected emotionally with the music. It was breathtaking and powerful and this tour is going to be incredible! Now, come on. Sauli said he made pancakes for the party Adam's having back at their place, and I’m starving."

^v^

Shoving at Jase playfully, Tommy let him pull him over to where Adam and Sauli were standing with a crowd of admirers.

Adam winked at him, mouthing the words 'we did it'.

Tommy grinned.

Sauli bounded forward, wrapping Tommy and Jase up in enthusiastic hugs. "The concert was amazing, you were amazing," he squeezed Tommy again, turning to beam at Adam.

"Adam was his usual amazing self," Tommy finished for him.

Adam stepped forward, enveloping him in a rib-cracking hug. "I'm proud of you."

"Thanks," Tommy whispered, "it was all you though. You chose it."

"But we performed it. Together."

^v^

Tommy smiled, pushing into Adam's embrace, kissing his jaw. "You said it was going to be awesome. This tour is gonna kick ass."

"I hope so," Adam said softly.

Pulling back, Tommy frowned at him. "Nope, no more doubts, not after tonight. You're gonna kill it all over the world. And we're gonna do it together, all of us."

Adam squeezed his hand and smiled.

"Tommy's right, no more doubts. Tonight, we celebrate." Sauli interrupted.

Jase's stomach let out a rumble, and they all laughed.

Tommy clapped his hands once. "Okay, enough mushy stuff. Let's eat. My man is starving."


The End